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Wednesday, November 1, 2023

So there have been quite a few changes in my life since my last posting. The two biggest things are the fact that I no longer have my chickens (a bittersweet thing...I loved my chickens and I miss them dearly, but I have more time to myself now), and I have received a promotion at work to manager. That actually was one of the leading reasons for me to sell the chickens - it's going to take up more of my time and I just don't have the time for the chickens and for managerial stuff. Before I sold the chickens, I actually lost the rescue chicken, Mathilda, to a raccoon. I'd forgotten to shut her up in her pen before work one day (up until the manager position, I have worked nights, so when I get home from work, the chickens are asleep and I don't check on them), and found her headless body the next morning when I went out to feed them. I felt so bad, since she was one of my favorites and I had rescued her so long ago. So losing her shored up my resolve to sell the chickens. She was such a pretty silver-laced Wyandotte, and I generally got 5 eggs from her a week, although when we had that heat wave and drought, her production did slow down considerably.

Other changes include my relationship. Steve and I have backed off from considering ourselves "married", since we never did so legally. Or maybe I should say I have backed off from it, since he never actually considered us to be. For him, I am, and always will be, just his boyfriend. I've given up on thinking about our future together, and generally don't really consider us to have one. Just living in the moment for right now. It'll go where it goes and that's that. He has his life, I have mine, and they meet up most weekends. Haha, and now I hear Arnold from "Torch Song Trilogy" when he's talking about the types of lovers he's gone through, one of which is, with a wink, "Just in for the weekend". Another change is that before Steve and I started having the problems we had 3 months ago (I won't go into exactly what transpired, but it nearly broke us up), I loved plants and had slowly been working on transforming my yard into a work of art - haha, with weeds, because I hate weeding! But after that, I don't give a rat's ass about plants anymore. It's like a switch turned off in my mind. I mowed down a couple of flowerbeds and am slowly decommissioning the rest of the flowerbeds. We had such a long, hot drought though that it's taking a while. Today's a nice, cold day, so who knows, I may get out there to do some more tearing down of beds. Or not. I honestly can't be bothered to care one way or the other these days about them.

After the problems we had, I went through a bit of a purge. I threw out at least 3/4 of my clothes, threw out lots of other things too, and was going to sell my coin collection. I did end up selling an album full of currency, including an 1899 Black Eagle dollar bill, to Steve (I wanted to sell it elsewhere, but he actually gave me a far better price than the other guy I was going to sell it too). I've decided to keep the rest of my collection though, at least for now. I've spent too much time and money on my collection to just start disposing of it. It's definitely a lot though and takes up a lot of space in my house, but that's not space I plan to use for anything else, so it's fine. I also still look at coins whenever we go somewhere that has them for sale, but I rarely, if ever, buy any these days. That will change again in the (hopefully near) future, I'm sure. I love coins too much not to start picking them up again!

I also plan to sell my house sometime in the near future. It has served its purpose in the last 13 years, but it's time to move on. I don't know if I'll get what I need to get for it, but we shall see. I just feel like I've been in such a rut here lately, with my life, my love, and my home. My love life has changed radically already, and I do have to say I rather enjoy not having to consider the future with Steve. Just living for the moment with him is fine with me for now. That won't be enough for much longer, I'm sure, but it's fine for now. We actually just celebrated our 17 year anniversary on September 23rd, and had a nice dinner with friends that night. None of the friends were aware of the issues and problems we'd been going through before that night, because we didn't want them to know about it. Although if any of them read this blog (unlikely lol) they will then know. But since I haven't elaborated on them here, they still won't really know what's been going on.

Halloween was fun, and I had a great time setting up what decorations I did. I had a couple of skeletons sitting in my front yard at a wrought iron black table with a ouija board between them. The board was wrapped in Saran wrap for protection from the weather, and the planchette was glued to the board so I didn't have to worry about evil spirits moving it around lol. I also still had my Halloween decoration from last year up. It's a face with arms that goes on a tree, and last year I decided to leave it up year-round for anyone driving up the street at night to enjoy lol.

Ok, gentle reader, that's it for today. I hope to get back into this at least a bit. I've always enjoyed writing, but sometimes it's a bit much for my time.

George